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somedays I just want to get the hell out of here and start over. There is just some people in my life I can throw away. what good were they really being in my life?


fuck em.

Something I've noticed....

I can't look someone in the eye if I don't have lost any respect for them. I can't even look at their face or direction. As sad as it seems, there was a time where I couldn't look at myself in the mirror, I guess I knew I didn't have respect for myself at one point. Now I know what I want to be and what exactly I don't want to be. Realization hits me like a brick sometimes. I have come to realize, should have, would have are just spilled milk, you can't dwell on them. Things happened the way they did and that is it. PERIOD. I think I have lost faith in some things, but now know what I can believe in for myself. I can't let other people's actions deteriorate faith for myself. If I believe in myself and know what I can be and how things can be, then I will be alright. Change needs to happen and I need to let go....& its so hard when you want it so bad.